I sat for a long time last night trying to create a journal entry. I ended up deleting it. It just was uninspired and quite frankly boring.
When did my life become lacking in drama? There is a lull in the industry that I claim to work in. Things should begin to pick back up in spring. My personal life is calm, like the surface of a tranquil lake. The lines in my face from stress and the everyday demands life makes on me are relaxed and softened. What is up?
Could it be that the daily upheavels coupled with all the drama that my daughter presented to me each and everyday of our lives since she turned a teenager are actually over? The years have been rocky ever since she entered Middle School. I lost my influence and grip on her. I was replaced by a bunch of thugs whom she considered to be her best friends. I lost her for many years, yet I was always the one to pick up the pieces, to rescue her, and what I finally realized was enabling her.
All that changed miraculously when she met her boyfriend S. A man came to my rescue!!!! How I hate to say that, but it is the truth. Love can change the world. He has been a blessing. He has dramatically changed her life and turned it around, and subsequently mine.
No longer do I deal with wrecked cars, the inside of court rooms and judges, paying bail, and crying at the funerals of "children" I loved. Those kids who were not equipped to make the right choices in regards to drugs, alcohol and vehicles. "Children" who were overwhelmed with struggles that demand coping skills people twice their ages lack.
Enjoying my life calm and boring ? I answered my own question.