I have spent the past several days realizing that I have a birthday that will arrive shortly and there is nothing I can do about it.
This birthday is distressing me. This one is painful. I want all the things that come with the aging process. I need to become wiser and to shed the last remnants of insecurities. I want all this to happen while I remain youthful and healthy!
I do not want to be surprised by the reflection of a middle aged woman who slightly resembles me as I pass by windows in the Mall......realizing its ME.
Thus far I have survived drugs, alcohol, a horrific car accident, single parenthood, early menopause, completing a mini-marathon, loosing friends, tumultuous relationships, and having my only child leave the nest and the tree!
And I have so much to look forward to. Ireland and Italy. Grand children. As they say, having a birthday is better than the alternative.